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So I've Decided to Start a Little Blog...

So I’ve decided to start blogging again. For those of you that don’t know, I am in a period of true miraculous spiritual transition. 

I want to share my journey in my quest for unwavering faith, in my experience with living with a physical disability, and my passion for experiencing the best that life has to offer in every situation, by the grace of God. 


In May, my fiancé and I will be baptized and fully confirmed into the Catholic Church. While I understand now that this is my home, I must admit that at first I found things a little intimidating- after all, this is the original church full of years and years of traditions. I had a lot to learn. When I think about the first time I attended Mass, I remember how nervous I felt not knowing how to fully participate.


My first Mass was actually on an Ash Wednesday. I remember receiving my ashes and hearing the person administering them say, “from dust you were made and to dust you will return”.  That sentence stuck with me ever since. It really put into perspective that this life is so temporary. And while that COULD be scary, it’s not to me anymore. You see, facing my own mortality was what brought me to God in the first place. I learned that this life can be gone in the blink of an eye. At that point, you truly are given either death or a new and eternal life. I knew in my heart I wanted life. But I also knew at that time when I faced death- unconscious in the hospital (a story for another blog post), I wasn’t ready to go just yet. I had so much work to do. And I still definitely do. I plan to use any time I have left in this life trying to be the best version of myself I can be, and to help others find the best version of themselves by experiencing a loving relationship with God. I realized that if I could help just one person feel more comfortable joining in and understanding Catholicism and Christianity, then I would be overjoyed!  


My dream for this blog would be a conversation. Where the readers feel comfortable asking questions or teaching me new things. Please feel free to communicate publicly or anonymously and I will do my best to address it! 



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